Here am I, in the southern Thai city of Surat Thani. A pleasant place, filled with lots of good people, plus a few no so good---just like everywhere. Here for a month so far, caught between several conflicting impulses. Go home to Australia, see my family, brothers etc. I will do that, but also, fucked up financially. Lost 90% of my money in a financial scam---long story. So feeling fucked up. Ashamed to do anything. Fuck me. Just hang out here, relax and see what happens.
