i went to breakfast this morning with the first boy to ever break my heart....we had lovely conversation about everything and nothing....its always interesting to see how college can change a person....chris is one of the few that hasnt been changed by it....that makes me smile for some reason...

we sat down to eat at dennys around 9 or so and didnt leave until 12....we drank cup after cup of black coffee and smoked a ridiculous amount of cigarettes....i love our relationship now....its so complex and thought provoking...well at least it is to me....he makes me ponder things i normally dont and i do the same for him....he read me poetry and caused a scene which was absolutely delightful....i drew him a portrait and sang him a song....all in all i dont think either of us are welcomed at dennys anymore....ha...

the drive back to my house was just intoxicating....its days like this that i am so glad i live in pittsburgh...it was beautiful...we stopped at an abandonned barn type building and played in the leaves and took pictures of each other....we came thisclose to kissing several times but one of us would crack a joke and we would move on into another topic...

we hugged as i got out of the car and i kissed his cheek...he looked at me and smiled then licked my face...i miss that boy incredibly...and i didnt realize it until today....

so yes what to do with myself for the rest of the day....sundays make me so lazy for reason....but its so lovely outside and i know that tomorrow the weather will return to its ugly shitty self....blah damn mother nature....