eyesoopenned

was i your one hit wonder
or was it the other way
songs of forgotten angst
pent up sex in power chords
that knocked me out
do you still hum my name
when youre in the shower
or in your car
my heart fell to the pavement
that night you let me know where
i stood, sat, slept and fucked
just your whore was good enough
now im just a fleeting puff of smoke
up and out the window
while you drive down your highway
a lonley cigarette butt
that no one wants to hit
like the mack truck, you ran me over
hospital bed morning, iv's cant pump my veins
not like you
in in in over and again
i want your taste on my lips
cancor sore that wont go away
i need your medicine, your angry voice
to sing me asleep.



so yes i am going to start posting regularly again....i feel awful about not replying to any of you who leave beautiful comments full of love and kindness....im sorry im a bitch....

i had a date yesterday...well not exactly a date..more like uh,,,hmm...how to put it ladylike....it was just an excuse to fuck...ha....although this was an interesting one....or two should i say....i got a call on monday from an old friend...his name is joey and he use to be a punk rock boyi had a crush on...now he's a "thug"...and i no longer have a crush on him....well he called me up and asked if i was in the mood to fuck...i said sure and we made a date for yesterday....when he came to get me there was an incredibly sexy boy in the backseat...he was introduced to me as jordan....this boy(unfortunately) was also a "thug"....so yes there i was in a shitty old lincoln in a plaid miniskirt, ripped fishnets, tube sucks and black boots, and an incredibly old adverts shirt with these two boys who seemed to have more moeny wrapped around their wrists and necks than i had in my bank account wondering what was to come...

apparently joey and jordan arent homosexuals....they just like to fuck girls together...haha....these boys were quite amusing...and quite good in the sack....so yes my life long fantasy of being called "boo" while being fucked came true...haha....all in all it made for an interesting evening....i mean ive had my fair share of threesomes....but never me and 2 boys...its always been me a girl and a guy.....it was nice....but i missed the extra estrogen you get when its 2 girls on 1 boy....

as for jason...his birthday is on the 3rd....ive had his present wrapped and placed on top of my dresser for the pass 3 weeks now....im going to give it to him tomorrow night....he works until midnight and i start at 11:30...i figure it will be the only chance i get to see him....so....i know it sounds pathetic....but i still care very much for him and so i guess even if we arent "together" we can still have some sort of friendship....so what did i buy him you ask(or didnt ask)...."bumfights"on dvd...i dont know...he wants it awfully bad and so igot it for...if only he wanted me awfully bad....ha.....but hey im getting over this slowly but surely...

so yeah today marks 100 days...sometimes it feels like i quit yesterday...oh well i guess these things take time as well....

i feel somewhat sexy right now....too bad i have to be at work in about 2 hours....come and visit me....ill give you free slurpees....

i dont really have too much else to write about....have a lovely evening filled with pleasant dreams of pink moons and singing mermaids.....xoxo...