Haven't been around in awhile. My biggest fear to date came true. The old lady left me after 8 years. The past week has been a mess. I'm doing better with it daily though. I'm doing all of the things I supposed to also. I'm going out and doing things (even though I just want to hibernate for awhile.) Just this weekend, I've been to 2 free concerts (S.F. symphony puts on one helluva free concert in the park and a friend of a friend was in charge of the Bay Area Indie Music Festival.), open house at Drake's Brewery and I'm making plans to meet up with friends for chinese food and beers later today.
The friend thing is still an issue. I don't know if I abandoned my friends when I started this relationship or if it was the other way around but now I feel as if I'm surrounded by acquaintances. It's time to really start rebulding or just looking for new ones.
The most important decision I think I've made though is to keep my "Higher Ground" as Bradley so eloquently put it. (No, Connie. Not that "kind" of "high") I'm gonna sit back and ride this one out. No sexual rampages with girls that I'm not particulaly interested in just to make up for this empty hollow feeling that has been growing in my chest cavity for the past 2 weeks. I'm too old for those kinds of fleeting encounters. (Not to mention thaat it would completely destroy any hopes of our getting back together.) (Yeah, I can be an optimist.)
Plus, I am (as much as I don't want to) making the attempt at giving her her space. If she has any notion of getting back together, I figure that absence will be tho only thing that'll prove it to her. I'm not giving up mind you. I'll be in her thoughts somehow but I understand how damaging a persistent ex with the intention of getting back together can be to any chance of that happening. (Was that all one sentence. I should get some puctuation in there somewhere.)
So, life goes on. As cliche as it may sound, that will be my motto for the time being. Everything will be done the same way minus the involvement of one person. We may get back together. We may not. Either way, I'm just gonna go on doing what I have been and try to cope along the way.
And, you can bet that next weekend is gonna be just as busy (if not busier than) this weekend.
Fri night- StarWars at the outdoor theater
Sat night- Party/ BBQ for 3 of my friends' b-days
Sun. Scottish Games
Mon I sheet out my leever.
Thanks for all the nice wishes. I'm gonna get back to you all in a little while.
The friend thing is still an issue. I don't know if I abandoned my friends when I started this relationship or if it was the other way around but now I feel as if I'm surrounded by acquaintances. It's time to really start rebulding or just looking for new ones.
The most important decision I think I've made though is to keep my "Higher Ground" as Bradley so eloquently put it. (No, Connie. Not that "kind" of "high") I'm gonna sit back and ride this one out. No sexual rampages with girls that I'm not particulaly interested in just to make up for this empty hollow feeling that has been growing in my chest cavity for the past 2 weeks. I'm too old for those kinds of fleeting encounters. (Not to mention thaat it would completely destroy any hopes of our getting back together.) (Yeah, I can be an optimist.)
Plus, I am (as much as I don't want to) making the attempt at giving her her space. If she has any notion of getting back together, I figure that absence will be tho only thing that'll prove it to her. I'm not giving up mind you. I'll be in her thoughts somehow but I understand how damaging a persistent ex with the intention of getting back together can be to any chance of that happening. (Was that all one sentence. I should get some puctuation in there somewhere.)
So, life goes on. As cliche as it may sound, that will be my motto for the time being. Everything will be done the same way minus the involvement of one person. We may get back together. We may not. Either way, I'm just gonna go on doing what I have been and try to cope along the way.
And, you can bet that next weekend is gonna be just as busy (if not busier than) this weekend.
Fri night- StarWars at the outdoor theater
Sat night- Party/ BBQ for 3 of my friends' b-days
Sun. Scottish Games
Mon I sheet out my leever.
Thanks for all the nice wishes. I'm gonna get back to you all in a little while.
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hibernating is good...i'm sorry about your girl, but all things work themselves out in time, i am told.
Drake's Brewery?? what is this magical place of which you speak?
tis' best to be positive, when things are In and Out of your control. Cheers!