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So an update on the old lady issue.

I guess that girl has got me seriously whooped. Of course I'm gonna wait around for her.

We hung out tonight. It was the first time I've even talked to her since Thurs. night. It was nice. We went to a Salvadorian Restaurant in Berkeley and then to see Paris Je t'aime. (It was actually pretty good. It made me wanna go back a lot.) Thurs. night's conversation was not brought up once though. Almost uncomfortably. I think we both just wanted to have a good night out (which we did) and both figured that the inevitable conversation would spoil the evening. So, we spent the night wondering what the other person was thinking. But, it included a lot of hand holding and saying "I love you's" over and over again and ended with a nice walk back to the car with one arm around her and the other one holding her hand (Jeez do I really sound that sappy?) and Elvis Costello's North was playing on the cd player the whole way home and it was perfect. She was sad when we got to my car and I drove home. I could've stayed in her all night and just hung out but, she has work tomorrow early and I'm still working off last night's drunken shit talking early evening out with the friends.

I wanted to have a picnic with her on memorial day but she's working. Maybe sometime next week.

This may seem a little broken up but that only explains how I feel even more.

I don't know what to write. I didn't accomplish anything tonight other than having a good night and showing her that I still love her. We still are going to have a lot to work on in the near future.

Thanks for the words of support. Especially Connielingus and Cuntrebecca who both do a great job of distracting me enough to keep my mind off it for at least a little while.