eyehatetherain

sigh.
way to start out the new year.
just one of those thinking kinda nights. going over everything in my head recently. alot and nothing has been going on all at once. the first half of january was so full of stuff going on. alot of partying. a little too much at one point and i ended up having an unexpected drunken night with a good guy friend of mine. ha i havent really drank since. decided i needed a break from all that.
guy i've been pursuing. turns out he has a gf. that he never told me about till a week ago when she was back visiting in town. so i scrapped that. the last thing i need to do is deal with another guy like that. i wont lie. its disappointing. i really wanted this to work.
but at the same time i'm not really upset about him. i'm upset about losing something that could have been. more the idea of what it could have been.
oh well. just another lost prospect..........