sigh. i've realized i have always been a very open person. ever since i finally came out of my shell around 15 i've been open to tell any friend i had about my problems, or things going on in my life. this is how its been until just recently. i've found that i just cant do it anymore. apart from writing a few things down i dont want to be open with people. its like telling them my problems is simply making me recap them all. alot of things right now are just coming up and hitting hard. holding those feelings and thoughts at bay are hard enough without having to repeat it over and over. so aside from a few places i write things down, i havent been saying a single things to anyone about even having problems. or complaining about anything going on. it feels like being open in the past ruined something big for me.so i cant really do it anymore.
this is just about keeping me a little less full of regret and trying to look like someone who doesnt need your charity.
nothing personal, its just me.
this is just about keeping me a little less full of regret and trying to look like someone who doesnt need your charity.
nothing personal, its just me.
piperluv:
I rarely tell people my stuff. Because of the same feeling you are having..There are maybe 1 or 2 people that i'll tell anything to. But I rarely do that. I alwaysn feel that if I let it out it's like I'm pissing and moaning.
eyehatetherain:
ya thats how i feel. among other things.
