extremeloser

i want to run away, my life is becoming so complicated i just want to leave it all behind. the other day i almost broke down and cried at WORK... i havent cried in a long time, i was so scared for a friends life, it frightens me... and its my fault, and i cant forget about it. its makes me sick to my stomach i feel like puking, but all it would be is Soda cause i havent eaten thing all day and probably wont for the rest of the night... iam going to go figure something out and try not to have a heart attack... seriously i think i almost had a heart attack, it has happened to me before... my left arm will hurt and be num, i get light headed and i will have chest pains... then the irregular heart beat starts... iam i dieing again?