Why is it so hard to decide whether or not I should hold onto something that may not and may never exist, and something which holds at least a slight chance of existing? I miss the person I used to be. That is, the person I used to be when I was four. I didn't worry. I made a choice, accepted the good and the bad, and moved on to whatever caught my interest next. Is reverting to a four year old mindset an option at this point in life? Hm. Probably not. Not unless I want to live at home... or in a mental ward. Padded walls! 
Anyways, on a lighter note, I fixed my computer. I have this problem. More of a vicious cycle really. I tend to fiddle with things on my computer which most people would never think to modify... then it breaks. Once I figure out how to fix it and do so, I then find something else to break.
Hm. The last two paragraphs I've typed are starting to make me wonder if my mind is simply overactive 24 hours a day. Possible? I think so.
Thanks for the offers of computer help guys. I'm a freak when it comes to my computer. I don't let ANYONE touch it, except my brother, seeing as he did build it for me and I trust him entirely seeing as he taught me everything I know. Even my work computer is not touched by the resident computer tech. My computers are like my unborn children. Freak? Yeah sure, you can call me that.
I've decided that I'm going to get 100%, possibly 125%, trashed on my birthday. My last four birthdays have sucked the big one and I must break that pattern. This year shall be the start of a new birthday pattern. It is the beginning of a new me. The old me is coming back. Look for the new me in theatres near you February of 2005!
I'm on cam. Good times. I look anorexic skinny too! Go look - it's mad hot!
Anyways, on a lighter note, I fixed my computer. I have this problem. More of a vicious cycle really. I tend to fiddle with things on my computer which most people would never think to modify... then it breaks. Once I figure out how to fix it and do so, I then find something else to break.
Hm. The last two paragraphs I've typed are starting to make me wonder if my mind is simply overactive 24 hours a day. Possible? I think so.
Thanks for the offers of computer help guys. I'm a freak when it comes to my computer. I don't let ANYONE touch it, except my brother, seeing as he did build it for me and I trust him entirely seeing as he taught me everything I know. Even my work computer is not touched by the resident computer tech. My computers are like my unborn children. Freak? Yeah sure, you can call me that.
I've decided that I'm going to get 100%, possibly 125%, trashed on my birthday. My last four birthdays have sucked the big one and I must break that pattern. This year shall be the start of a new birthday pattern. It is the beginning of a new me. The old me is coming back. Look for the new me in theatres near you February of 2005!
I'm on cam. Good times. I look anorexic skinny too! Go look - it's mad hot!
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i'm happy that you fixed your comp....tweaking can be dangerous...
hope you have fun getting blitzed on your b-day... and who knows. while your out you may find someone to make the sadness go away... at least for a little while anyway...
carpe noctum...