exploded

i dated this girl a few years ago whom i was really into. like, i thought i was falling in love with her after only a few weeks. i thought that she felt the same.

then one day (after we saw fight club in the theatre, actually) she dumped me out of the blue (which speaks volumes for how awesome fight club is, you would think i should hate it because of that). i was devastated. i would continue to run into her at shows and stuff, then i would start seeing her at shows with her new boyfriend. she and i were still friends (are still friends actually), so we would talk, catch up. i became aquaintances with her new boyfriend because of this. well, a few months ago i saw her boyfriend at a show, and talked to him. he didnt really remember me. when i mentioned the girl, he was like "oh yeah, i remember you" and proceeded to tell me that mandi cheated on him several times.

throughout those few years after she had broken up with me, i always wondered what if? that she cheated on him makes me feel better, because that would have been me, had she not dumped me. i know thats a wierd sort of logic, and it doesnt make what she did to him any better. but, things turned out for the best.