exning

I hate not drinking.

No more bars, no more parties, no more casinos, no more overstimulated nights where I can have an excuse to lift the weight off my shoulders. I've been smoking a lot of weed, which has helped. Sometimes I still wonder if I'll be able to drink again, and realizing how much I think about it seems like it was a good idea to quit. To recap, I had drank and it reacted with my medication..causing me to stay in the hospital and mental hospital. In some ways I miss being a junkie when I was younger, but I had no responsibilities. My brain is not meant to be calm and collected, and it never will. That's something I'll have to accept. But without drugs or alcohol? I don't even know anymore





My stupid computer part is still in the mail. So go look at me naked






That's right, I have two sets out that need your love!