exning

Sometimes things are barely in your reach that you can almost lick the success off it. It's such a shame that I can predict the future but it just happens way too slow! School is exhausting, to the point where I'm not even learning anything and I just miss that. It's the same thing, over and over again, and I feel like I haven't been challenged in years. I quit smoking for that same reason. I guess if someone heard me saying this they'd smack me in the face and say "YOURE FUCKING LUCKY" but everyone wants what they can't have, and when they have it-they don't want it anymore. I wish there was a pill for that.


On a side note I've been having too many girl crushes lady and I really need to get my ass off the internet because they are all so far away! Theres a particular girl that lives here that is really neat but she has a boyfriend/thing/ thats open to new ideas. What the fuck does that mean? That means the boyfriend is too selfish to let me have her. I'm slowly realizing I'm liking girls more and more.