i'm not having that much fun. sometimes i don't know how exactly i got where i am. but i'm here.
i have more friends than i do free time, but when i want to call somebody to talk (like girls do [stereotypically]) perhaps about something personal, there isn't a single motherfucker that i can really call. ain't that some shit.
i graduate from undergraduate collegiate study in may, and i can't fucking wait, but i can't help but feel i wasted those years.
i had a girlfriend like 5 years ago or so, and i think about her just about everyday.
hoo. that's way too personal, but hey, it's cathartic. i hope.
on a lighter note i got real drunk this weekend, i came back into some cash, so i'm no longer broke, and i rediscovered my love of bowling and drugs, and bowling on drugs.
i also feel old.
only people who have it too good worry about shit like this. that's some shit you gotta keep in perspective. fuckin hassles.
all this so i don't regret TOO much shit when i'm too old to change anything.
a sort of post-turn-of-the-millennium ennui, post-modern malaise of the middle class white male.
will i finish that album when i'm done graduating, or go to the gym, or start drawing more, or finish designing my tattoos, or save up for my tattoos, or that gun i want, or find some investors for the business, or finally get the fuck outta the country, or ______.
i'd sure like a drink. here's to everyone who isn't always having a great time. that's all of us, innit?
i have more friends than i do free time, but when i want to call somebody to talk (like girls do [stereotypically]) perhaps about something personal, there isn't a single motherfucker that i can really call. ain't that some shit.
i graduate from undergraduate collegiate study in may, and i can't fucking wait, but i can't help but feel i wasted those years.
i had a girlfriend like 5 years ago or so, and i think about her just about everyday.
hoo. that's way too personal, but hey, it's cathartic. i hope.
on a lighter note i got real drunk this weekend, i came back into some cash, so i'm no longer broke, and i rediscovered my love of bowling and drugs, and bowling on drugs.
i also feel old.
only people who have it too good worry about shit like this. that's some shit you gotta keep in perspective. fuckin hassles.
all this so i don't regret TOO much shit when i'm too old to change anything.
a sort of post-turn-of-the-millennium ennui, post-modern malaise of the middle class white male.
will i finish that album when i'm done graduating, or go to the gym, or start drawing more, or finish designing my tattoos, or save up for my tattoos, or that gun i want, or find some investors for the business, or finally get the fuck outta the country, or ______.
i'd sure like a drink. here's to everyone who isn't always having a great time. that's all of us, innit?
i think skool isn't really necessary unless you need a piece of paper to prove something to someone else. or, unless you need to use your skool's equipment to learn on (which is why i thought i had to go to skool for recording engineering, but i have my own recording console now... hopefully, i'll get a job or apprentice/internship when i move to cali.) i guess maybe there are some professions that skool is helpful with, on the other hand, i'm confident that i can teach myself more thoroughly than a teacher instructing a classroom can. and furthermore, i'd be under less pressure to get an assignment done by a certain date, and more compelled to actually learn ( i know very well that i learn near-nothing during my caffeine-wired night-before cramming sessions that are always in order. )
what are you studying?
what are your favorite nietzsche and voltaire writings?
i've never read american psycho, but i loved the concept of the movie. i've heard that it's better. same with clockwerk orange, but i couldn't bring myself past page 15 of that book. i'm about to start reading a kafka book... i've never read any kafka before. ok. enough. byebye.