yeah. so it's fucking monday again, and no matter how clich it is to talk shit about mondays, they really are fucking terrible. i think i may very well hate sunday worse, however. whatever. anyhow, so i'm going to spend all day studying for my organic chemistry midterm that's on wednesday, but i have to find time to do all the fucking lab questions which take several hours that are due tomorrow, and the calculus computer homework also due tomorrow. so i'm pretty busy i guess. my weekend was pretty weak. it failed to inoculate me from the anxiety of the work week. next week is equally bleak. halloween my favorite holiday will be nearly ruined by molecular biology midterm on monday (my most difficult class), followed by calculus midterm on friday, sandwiching the usual shit in the middle.
yeah, so if i kept i diary i guess this is what it would look like... complaining about how school consumes my life and my absurdly hopeless struggle against it by soaking my brain in ethanol as often as possible. the real problem is that while i mourn the loss of freedom and time that i once spent on making beats and drawing, reading and writing, traveling and visiting, plain ol kickin it, etc., i have to compete with kids who have been doing nothing but the school thing their entire lives. it's surprising but it comes quite natural to some to spend the majority of their free time studying. i like As as much as the next kid (or do i?), but if i dropped dead tomorrow i'd sure as fuck feel bad about wasting my last day learning SN1 and SN2 reaction mechanisms. and that my friends is that.
yeah, so if i kept i diary i guess this is what it would look like... complaining about how school consumes my life and my absurdly hopeless struggle against it by soaking my brain in ethanol as often as possible. the real problem is that while i mourn the loss of freedom and time that i once spent on making beats and drawing, reading and writing, traveling and visiting, plain ol kickin it, etc., i have to compete with kids who have been doing nothing but the school thing their entire lives. it's surprising but it comes quite natural to some to spend the majority of their free time studying. i like As as much as the next kid (or do i?), but if i dropped dead tomorrow i'd sure as fuck feel bad about wasting my last day learning SN1 and SN2 reaction mechanisms. and that my friends is that.
And regarding Atmosphere... my cousin says that they are underground hip-hop for preadolescent girls. To tell the truth I don't think I've ever heard any of their shit, but the whole concept of a emo hip-hop group pretty much sounds like a formula for disaster. Maybe I shouldn't be so critical until after I've heard it though.
Take it from a college dropout, you don't really realize how much fun you were really having until after it's over, but then again you may not end up in a crappy ass city like mine. So hang in there, I'm sure it will pay off eventually.