Help needed! A while ago, I was surfing some SG blogs and I found a member that had a Virginia Woolf (at least I think it was Virginia Woolf) quote about books and something about the afterlife, then there was a few pictures of her with books in the background. I can remember thinking the blog was kind of neat and now I can't find...
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violently:
i don't know how he deals with it, but he doesn't seem to want much either. we both rarely have any free time together even though we spend nearly every waking second together. we are constantly working and doing things at the bar. i know it has killed my sex drive, i imagine it might be doing the same for him. when we come home all we want to do is sleep.
So an update. I sit here, with all my papers fully complete. All that needs to be done now is for me to scale the mountain of finals that I must correct, then my summer officially begins. I am totally looking forward to this summer, taking extra photos, sleeping in, doing research that I actually want to be doing, and finally getting my chest inked....
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Things are good this weekend. For a while I was kind of depressed and lonely every weekend. I'm not sure what happened that could contribute to my feeling normal again. Perhaps I am just psyched about moving out, and simultaneously distracted with papers I need to be writing. Had a bit of an encounter with the ex on Facebook, it kind of wrecked my whole...
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marysa:
i hope your papers are doing good and that your ex didn't invade the whole space 
I'll keep you posted, i'm excited/nervous/worried i hope as always, this only brings the best out of me again.
I'll keep you posted, i'm excited/nervous/worried i hope as always, this only brings the best out of me again.
I was pretty pissed off this week. My therapist asked me to write about what I found valuable or positive about my own body. Now, my initial emotional reaction was to feel uneasy and conflicted about such a prospect. But, it launched me into investigating the layers upon layers of historical and social antecedents that has lead me to feel the way I do about...
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I am finally breaking out of this rut I've been in. I've been journaling like crazy and getting some real psychological results. Sure, sometimes I'm kind of bitchy for some days after I spill my feelings out on the page and get down to my deep and dark emotions, but a few days afterwords I feel better. I have also been doing some of the...
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Busy, busy, busy. I really haven't had any time to reflect on my feelings or my ex, perhaps I also had little time to feel sad as well. This could be a good thing, but I'm not sure yet. I started TAing a moral philosophy course this week. Things are pretty rough going. I had no idea that students entering University really know so little...
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In the movie "The Visitor", near the beginning of the movie the central character seems lost. He is smart, and intelligent, but the character that is presented reflects a deep lacking in a close human connection. He is trudging through life, sitting alone at the dinner table in the cafeteria, distant in meetings, and tries but fails to learn how to play piano. His heart...
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marysa:
thanks 
mr.... your lines made me feel sad
i hope you can get better, i've always thought that we all do, we all get better from breakups eventually, i did.
sending you lots of love and hugs
mr.... your lines made me feel sad
i hope you can get better, i've always thought that we all do, we all get better from breakups eventually, i did.sending you lots of love and hugs
It is the end of the week again! I had a wonderful counseling session on Monday where I recounted some of the emotional abuse in my past relationship. It was difficult, but still confirming that a mental health professional could identify my pain, sadness and anger. After I had left I felt like a weight had been lifted off my shoulders. The next day, however,...
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It is new years eve and I have just returned from a short Christmas vacation that I spent with family. I am trying not to dwell on the fact that I am doing nothing this new years but sitting at home, watching movies and reading. I have no idea why such things would bother me internally, but it does for some reason. I have never...
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I am feeling isolated again this weekend. It is not as if I am alone, my parents hang around and I suppose I could ask them if they want to go and hang out, but I am self conscious about that. I ask myself, "Is this what I am left with now? Hanging out with my parents?" Perhaps it is, as pathetic as that is....
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sunspun:
You will find love again. And you will learn ways to fulfill your hearts's desires in the myriad relationships available to you. Don't get caught up in what love has to look like, just be available. Show up. Go places. This is how things happen differently- by doing things differently. It will get better.
And for what it's worth, I love going out with my mom. We can close down a bar like no one's business
And for what it's worth, I love going out with my mom. We can close down a bar like no one's business