The move went fabulously and I'm all settled. The furniture I bought was totally cool too. I bought a sexy 100 year old red velvet couch, an antique rug, and an antique long coffee table that currently holds a huge set of books. My nerves have settled, but it got me thinking.
How is it that my sex crazed friend and I haven't done it yet? I mean, she tells me she's totally into sex, and thinks about it all the time. Her mom says that she found me very handsome, and she claims that she is very forward about asking for sex. I figured that if she wanted it, she would have asked me by now. The only thing is, she tells me how she makes out with her friends, she even has slept with most of them, but I guess I am different.
Maybe in her talking to me about sex, she drops hints every now and again. We laid in my bed together. She text-ed me drunk asking me what my favorite position is. Then she follows that up with her thoughts about how drunk texts really reveal something true that the person wouldn't express otherwise. Was she implying something here?
I met her family, and her and I talk explicitly about sex all the time. Finally, she told me about one friend of ours who just asked her outright if she would ever consider having sex with him. Then she told me about how she admires that from him, even if it is a bit socially strange. Was she secretly wanting me to ask her if she wanted to make love? Was she implying it? The problem is, we are both academics about sex and belong to certain academic groups dedicated to research about sex, so it's both of our intellectual passions. She's also moving tomorrow, but it's a bit of a blow to the ego that she never did ask me. I mean, I am used to being friends with women as opposed to a lover, and that's fine, but it's a little bit of a let down to know that she is so sexually active with everyone else she knows except me. I do enjoy her company. She is compassionate, understanding, intelligent, if not a bit emotional. My current thoughts on her are nothing but positive, I just wish there wasn't such a wall in front of me that prevents me from asserting myself in that way. I must say, I am getting better at it. I talk with people more, and carry conversations better than I once did.
I am trying to remain positive in all of this, but I'm not sure how I can break that psychological and social wall in front of me. Maybe booze will help to ease my tongue a bit. I will try that tomorrow is tomorrow is my sexual friend's going away dinner and celebration.
How is it that my sex crazed friend and I haven't done it yet? I mean, she tells me she's totally into sex, and thinks about it all the time. Her mom says that she found me very handsome, and she claims that she is very forward about asking for sex. I figured that if she wanted it, she would have asked me by now. The only thing is, she tells me how she makes out with her friends, she even has slept with most of them, but I guess I am different.
Maybe in her talking to me about sex, she drops hints every now and again. We laid in my bed together. She text-ed me drunk asking me what my favorite position is. Then she follows that up with her thoughts about how drunk texts really reveal something true that the person wouldn't express otherwise. Was she implying something here?
I met her family, and her and I talk explicitly about sex all the time. Finally, she told me about one friend of ours who just asked her outright if she would ever consider having sex with him. Then she told me about how she admires that from him, even if it is a bit socially strange. Was she secretly wanting me to ask her if she wanted to make love? Was she implying it? The problem is, we are both academics about sex and belong to certain academic groups dedicated to research about sex, so it's both of our intellectual passions. She's also moving tomorrow, but it's a bit of a blow to the ego that she never did ask me. I mean, I am used to being friends with women as opposed to a lover, and that's fine, but it's a little bit of a let down to know that she is so sexually active with everyone else she knows except me. I do enjoy her company. She is compassionate, understanding, intelligent, if not a bit emotional. My current thoughts on her are nothing but positive, I just wish there wasn't such a wall in front of me that prevents me from asserting myself in that way. I must say, I am getting better at it. I talk with people more, and carry conversations better than I once did.
I am trying to remain positive in all of this, but I'm not sure how I can break that psychological and social wall in front of me. Maybe booze will help to ease my tongue a bit. I will try that tomorrow is tomorrow is my sexual friend's going away dinner and celebration.