existentialblues

well, its not so bad, it looks like ill actually only be o.o.c. till the 25th. sucks but hey at least ill have my truck back for my birthday! oh wait.....but that means i wont have any money for my birthday.....never mind, it just sucks. oh well, hmmmm, so another year passed (well almost) that was fun, i remember many great days of....of....hmmm....i seem to remember work. although these last couple of months have been incredibly fun, i havent had this much fun since never! so anyways, the only thing i can really hope for right now is that i at least survive till my next birthday, that at least seems doable, but i really dont see much to hope for that wouldnt be an entire waste of my time and thought.so for now my only wish for my birthday is to not die. seems to work for me and its logical to boot! so anyways once again as every year, the countdown begins, and once again i find my self wondering if my mom will have the decency to remember my birthday this year and call to say as much. i doubt it, and as shes forgot so many times, and has never seemed to give a shit anyways when she remembers, i think i might just forget mothers day myself. thats easy, cause lord knows i cant forget HER birthday. thank god i only ever have to buy her one happy christmas present. although seeing as i never know where shes living and she hardly ever calls or visits, it usually turns out to be christmas in july.
oh damn...come to think of it, i dont even know how im gonna trick anyone into getting me anything, i managed to get one present last year, and it was the first b-day present id had in 4 years, since i was turning 22 i managed to talk the gas station cashier into giving me a free 22! thank you gas station clerk man!
but indeed i am rambling, im incredibly bored and am now off to entertain myself by playing legend of zelda a link to the past, as far into the night as i possibly can. goodnight all!