evy

Wow.

There is alot on my mind that I want to say and get out there, but I'm just not sure how to get it out.

The one thing I can affectively express right now is that I am totally smitten and every damn thing he does makes me like him a little bit more and I really hate it. You know in Love, Actually - we watched it together last night - where the little kid calls love total agony? That's how I feel right now. I'm all torn up inside because I want to tell everyone how much I really like him, but I can't even tell him because I'm a freaking chicken shit. Everyone assumes we are because we are together alot, but there isn't anything nearly that official going on. Right now, it's just two people who obviously like each other hanging out ALOT and hanging out with his brothers and sleeping in his bed all weekend and not telling each other what they both already know and that's how they feel about each other.

Blah!

Sometimes, I wish I was a little more aggressive.