Quick update time.
I have talked to or hung out with Steve every day since Friday for a really good spanse of time. We've talked about alot of different things, and today, we talked about relationships. I discussed my desire to not have anymore purely sexual ones. He told me that's not what he wants either. I told him how I want one that is a slower progression, I want a friend, then more. He liked that idea for himself too. We talked about how he has issues trusting people, but he really feels like he can trust me. He told me that he likes having me around because I'm someone he trusts and feels close to that isn't one of his brothers. We sat real close for me being at work. He kept bumping his knee into me and then he puts his legs up on my chair and let me use them as an arm rest. He actually came in and sat and talked with me just because I asked him to keep me company a little longer. And when he showed up and my house today, it really was an unexpected visit and he only came to just sit and talk and see me. It was amazing.
But what the hell does it all freaking mean?
I talked to both Bryan and Aaron about the situation and they told me almost exactly the same thing: He digs me. He's a good guy. I deserve someone like him. Just keep hanging out with him and see where it goes. Make sure I show him subtly that I am interested and that I'd be good for him. Flirt just like I have been. And, when the time is right, I'll know what I have on my hands and one of us will maybe have worked up the nerve to tell the other what is going on.
It's actually really good advice and it's going to help me not fret over the situation as much.
I did talk to Ellen about this all last night when we were "studying" and while she admits it might be weird because of what her and Steve's relationship has amounted to, she does think he likes me and that we'd be good together and that she'd be happy for me. Lisa thinks he likes me too. She said he's "different" when I'm around.
Speaking of Ellen: She lost another person to a car accident. This is the second person in two weeks and the third in a year and a half. I love her dearly, but I don't know how to comfort her right now. I need to find a way to set aside some time to just sit with her and maybe let her cry or eat ice cream or something if that's what she needs. I don't know what to do though and it really makes me sad.
Oh damn. This isn't short at all anymore. It's bed time now.
I have talked to or hung out with Steve every day since Friday for a really good spanse of time. We've talked about alot of different things, and today, we talked about relationships. I discussed my desire to not have anymore purely sexual ones. He told me that's not what he wants either. I told him how I want one that is a slower progression, I want a friend, then more. He liked that idea for himself too. We talked about how he has issues trusting people, but he really feels like he can trust me. He told me that he likes having me around because I'm someone he trusts and feels close to that isn't one of his brothers. We sat real close for me being at work. He kept bumping his knee into me and then he puts his legs up on my chair and let me use them as an arm rest. He actually came in and sat and talked with me just because I asked him to keep me company a little longer. And when he showed up and my house today, it really was an unexpected visit and he only came to just sit and talk and see me. It was amazing.
But what the hell does it all freaking mean?
I talked to both Bryan and Aaron about the situation and they told me almost exactly the same thing: He digs me. He's a good guy. I deserve someone like him. Just keep hanging out with him and see where it goes. Make sure I show him subtly that I am interested and that I'd be good for him. Flirt just like I have been. And, when the time is right, I'll know what I have on my hands and one of us will maybe have worked up the nerve to tell the other what is going on.
It's actually really good advice and it's going to help me not fret over the situation as much.
I did talk to Ellen about this all last night when we were "studying" and while she admits it might be weird because of what her and Steve's relationship has amounted to, she does think he likes me and that we'd be good together and that she'd be happy for me. Lisa thinks he likes me too. She said he's "different" when I'm around.
Speaking of Ellen: She lost another person to a car accident. This is the second person in two weeks and the third in a year and a half. I love her dearly, but I don't know how to comfort her right now. I need to find a way to set aside some time to just sit with her and maybe let her cry or eat ice cream or something if that's what she needs. I don't know what to do though and it really makes me sad.
Oh damn. This isn't short at all anymore. It's bed time now.
First off, I'm glad things are going well with you and Steve! Don't you love the whole process?
Second, about your friend Ellen--that is terrible. I couldn't imagine losing that many people to car accidents in such a short amount of time. I think your idea of setting aside time for her is wonderful.