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Things I feel like telling you all about me - or that I just want to get off my chest:

-Yes, chances are high I will be back at Witt next year against my better judgement and my deep desire to just want to leave for a while. I said I wasn't coming back for my senior year, and now there is a plan that...
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pinkily:
frown I'm sorry.

-I hate that I don't feel wanted, like I'm everyone's second choice.
-I hate how disgusting I feel.

I think those 2 statements are me in a nutshell, lately.

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Surgery is scheduled for the 23rd at 9am.

Yep, two days before Christmas.

This should be an interesting one.

tongue
pinkily:
I'm not really attemtping to be with him anymore. I told him to fuck off a little over 2 weeks ago.

The main problem is that I can't get over him. and It doesnt help when he goes telling my friend how he misses me and such. And I have to see him at least 3 days a week at work.

I still have hope that we will be together someday. Whether or not it will work out, who fucking knows.

I'm just in a rough spot right now.
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Yep, I'm tired and stressed. I have a ton to get done and no motivation to do it. It sucks kind of alot. I'm not used to being this unmotivated. I just want to sleep until I wake up and that's not an option at all. It's not that I didn't get enough sleep last night or the day before, because I did, I just...
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yuriel:
good luck dear
i know the feeling
best wishes
-hugs-
heh relax you arent doing as bad as you think i think? -shrug-
EL SUICIDO LOCO
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Huh...

I have to say this...

I had some of the best sex of my life last night.

AMAZING!

That is all.
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26-13 14-3-7-6-7. 13 24-25-14-3 22-1-19-3-7-21 3-8 3-7-15-15 17-8-25 3-26-1-3 13 15-8-6-7 17-8-25. 14-25-23-20-23-13-14-7-21?

I issued a challenge to Steve. He has to decode that message. The trick is, he doesn't get a key, he has to figure it out all on his own. He said he could do it if I gave him one, so now we'll see just how long it takes him. Mr....
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fatoperaguy:
I'm so going to decode that today!

unless its personal

let me know
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Again I say: Shit Fuck Hell Week

It's already hit hard.

Haven't been to bed yet and it's a Tuesday because I freaking studied my ass off all night and I still think I failed that exam. Why must Dudek make it all so fucking impossible?

Today I have one paper to write and I'd like to have all my chem homework done. If I...
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My subscription runs out right before (maybe after) Christmas. This kinda sucks since I don't have the money to renew it right now. I have bills to pay, a bank account to get back into the black, and presents to buy for my family and Steve.

Meh.

That is all.
pinkily:
frown it seems like everyone is leaving here.

Oh well. Me too.
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Meh.

Migraine.

Lots to do.

No desire to do anything.

Good news: Dudek is going to help me out grade-wise in chem becase of my not so 100% health.
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Long time no update... for me at least.

I want to write about how great my break was, but right now I'm not feeling it. I'm feeling more like crying than I want to admit.

I was hoping that looking up that information would make it all better, but now my head is heavy and a good cry is desperately needed.

To top it off,...
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punknitemike:
did everything go alright?
pinkily:
frown whats wrong?

Sometimes you just need a good cry. frown
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Sooo... My plans for Thanksgiving have been run past both sets of parents and finalized. It's official: I'm going home to Rochester, New York with Steve for Thanksgiving. Needless to say, I'm uber excited and kinda nervous at the same time. He's already got a short list of things he wants me to see, people he wants me to meet, places he wants me to...
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pinkily:
awwwwww! smile I don't even know how to post pictures like that on here. but that is so cute!

I have some pics of me an Tony, but they're stashed away right now. I might have to bust them back out, due to my recent journal entry, and the fact that I think we are officially back together (cause before, we weren't really official just cause I didn't think we were, for some reason)

You guys are so cute smile
pinkily:
yeah yeah yeah, I wanna know how to post pictures!! smile I wanna show off my hot boy. Well, he's hot to me, and that's all that matters smile
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I kinda heart Steve alot and when he did something cute this [afternoon] in bed, I told him so.

That card he was holding on to... he kinda gave it to me.

He said, "I like love," and smiled at me this evening and I smiled and said, "I love it."

heh.

Just felt like sharing that.
pinkily:
awwwww!!! smile so cute!
pinkily:
Thanks for the comment. smile

and yes, I know exactly what you mean about hinting around with the love thing. I miss those days! lol biggrin