evon

is it anything new that Jeff and i got into a dispute before i went to work?? All because we didnt hang out today..theres much more to the argument, but i dont feel like getting into it. I still feel terrible, and work made it worse. Jeff and i are supposed to go to some yard sales before he goes to work. For some reason i doubt if we will actually go. He wanted me to call him when i got out of work. He said that he would be up, but when i called him, i got no answer. I hope he will call me later though. I felt really shitty after i got off the phone. I cried the whole drive to work. Our problem is the whole "getting to know you" process. We dont really know eachother very well, which is why we dont feel close at all. I put up a wall for so long with people that iguess i dont know how to tear it back down...I need assistance. I dont like feeling vulnerable. Nobody does, but iguess thats the way to let people in. I need to re-learn that. Hopefully its not too late with Jeff...*sighs*