evon

i need a new job. a good paying new job. I like clinique, but not as much as i used to. I dont understand whyi get this way. Im at a job for a few months, and then i get bored with it. Im going to go back to school summer/fall but i want a job that will pay me at least what im making now. Im tired of having to look a certain way. Im tired of having to act a certan way. Im tired of having to pretend that im perky, chipper and upbeat when i really want to do is ball up and cry. I just feel like im being fake. That im acting a certain way when its not the way i really am. Serendipity, spare me the bullshit. I need to get out. This isnt the place for me. This isnt the job for me. I hate prissy bitches, and i work with the lot of them. I need to be where i belong, but i dont kno where that is. I need out. Desperately. but where can i go? What can i do? ::sighs:: i feel like im stuck in a rut. Stuck in the mud. And noone wants to help me back to dry land. There's so much i want to do, but i dont have the means to get it done. Nor the time. God, time, if i had about 10 more hours in every day. *sighs* its Clinique. I cant do it anymore, but i need to put my 2 weeks in. But i need to find another job first. Start the cycle again, yep again. and then in a few more months, i will start the cycle once again. And then a few months after that it will go again...