man man man...
Okay so for the past 2 days Jeff and i have hung out. Dont ask me why. Anyways we hung out and of course all of those feelings i had for him have come back. I went from feeling like this:
To feeling back like this: 
. I guess i missed him a lot more than i thought. But it was really nice when we were back in eachothers company. I mean, it was almost like we never broke up. We even slept in his bed together. But nothing happened between us. And like usually, he woke up before me. I was passed out. Then he had to go pay bills and things and i came back to my moms house. Oh my god, i miss him. I hate myself for that. For the fact that i finally got over him and then he pops in again. I mean, its really screwing with me because he keeps saying how much he missed me and that hes so glad to see me and all that stuff....yeah okay i really want to give him the benefit of the doubt because im starting to like him again. But i dont know what to do. *sighs* when i was driving home from his house, i felt like i wanted to cry because I wanted to give in and try to work things out again, but i dont know if they will. I dont know what he wants todo. Im trying not to think about it and let whatever happens happen, but when i try to do things that way, they never work out. I mean just look at shit with Johnny...whoa....we're just not going to even go there. I mean *Screams* i need a vacation or something just so i can sit and think....My head hurts just from trying to figure things with Jeff out. I mean, i dont know what to do.
**in other news, the ipod just wont work on this frikin laptop. great....just flippin grreat.
*im going to give my 30 day notice at the apartment January 1st. Then on February 1st i will be moved out of that shit hole and away from Ho bag. for good.! Then im going to get to sullivan and get my class schedule together. Then things will be better, much better.
I just dont know what to make out of things with Jeff...i really dont know what i should do.
Okay so for the past 2 days Jeff and i have hung out. Dont ask me why. Anyways we hung out and of course all of those feelings i had for him have come back. I went from feeling like this:
To feeling back like this: . I guess i missed him a lot more than i thought. But it was really nice when we were back in eachothers company. I mean, it was almost like we never broke up. We even slept in his bed together. But nothing happened between us. And like usually, he woke up before me. I was passed out. Then he had to go pay bills and things and i came back to my moms house. Oh my god, i miss him. I hate myself for that. For the fact that i finally got over him and then he pops in again. I mean, its really screwing with me because he keeps saying how much he missed me and that hes so glad to see me and all that stuff....yeah okay i really want to give him the benefit of the doubt because im starting to like him again. But i dont know what to do. *sighs* when i was driving home from his house, i felt like i wanted to cry because I wanted to give in and try to work things out again, but i dont know if they will. I dont know what he wants todo. Im trying not to think about it and let whatever happens happen, but when i try to do things that way, they never work out. I mean just look at shit with Johnny...whoa....we're just not going to even go there. I mean *Screams* i need a vacation or something just so i can sit and think....My head hurts just from trying to figure things with Jeff out. I mean, i dont know what to do.
**in other news, the ipod just wont work on this frikin laptop. great....just flippin grreat.
*im going to give my 30 day notice at the apartment January 1st. Then on February 1st i will be moved out of that shit hole and away from Ho bag. for good.! Then im going to get to sullivan and get my class schedule together. Then things will be better, much better.
I just dont know what to make out of things with Jeff...i really dont know what i should do.
You should maybe talk about the ways you miss each other