evolution

I just found out today that a girl I dated a few months ago is getting married at the end of the summer. I don't really know why it bothers me, well, actually I do know why, but its definately not the kind of news I wanted to hear this week.

Here I am, officially done school as of Monday night, and I'm the most depressed I've been in years. I'm nervous, scared, and even the littlest thing has been setting me off.

I felt so shitty that I skipped out on my grad show after party to essentially do nothing but have some beers and think about how unhappy I am. Some Saturday night I set up for myself.

I've always had trouble figuring out what I wanted at any given time, but this is pretty much the worst its ever been. April has rarely been a smooth month for me though. I'm looking foward to June and August, they almost never let me down.