Why is it so hard to move on and accept things sometimes? Relationships end, and almost never is it a mutual seperation. Thats just the way it goes; but why am I in such denial this time? Why is it that I can't get myself to move on?
Actually, I know the reason - its because I love her. How do you get by that though? I can't just forget that. Even then, I've been in situations before where there were strong feelings but it was obvious it just wouldn't work, but this time it wasn't like that.
Since the end she has made me learn alot, to mature, and to help fix what before was broken. Its just too bad it had to happen after it was too late. I had given up on myself, and I let her down, and in the same way one would show respect to the deceased by changing their life for the better, so have I.
If being at a funeral of a loved one is bad enough, its even worse to know you put them in the ground. I'm speaking metaphorically, of course, but thats the root of why I think I'm having so much trouble, and I don't know what to do.
I loved her, and that became hidden behind insecurities, depression, and lacking confidence to the point I unknowingly sabotaged the best thing that ever happened to me.
How do you force yourself to move on from someone you love, someone you so easily could've still been with, and just keep going?
She said it just doesn't feel the same. Theres nothing worse in the world at the moment someone tells you they no longer love you enough to be with you. I need to go on a vacation, to get away from here, as soon as fucking possible.
Actually, I know the reason - its because I love her. How do you get by that though? I can't just forget that. Even then, I've been in situations before where there were strong feelings but it was obvious it just wouldn't work, but this time it wasn't like that.
Since the end she has made me learn alot, to mature, and to help fix what before was broken. Its just too bad it had to happen after it was too late. I had given up on myself, and I let her down, and in the same way one would show respect to the deceased by changing their life for the better, so have I.
If being at a funeral of a loved one is bad enough, its even worse to know you put them in the ground. I'm speaking metaphorically, of course, but thats the root of why I think I'm having so much trouble, and I don't know what to do.
I loved her, and that became hidden behind insecurities, depression, and lacking confidence to the point I unknowingly sabotaged the best thing that ever happened to me.
How do you force yourself to move on from someone you love, someone you so easily could've still been with, and just keep going?
She said it just doesn't feel the same. Theres nothing worse in the world at the moment someone tells you they no longer love you enough to be with you. I need to go on a vacation, to get away from here, as soon as fucking possible.
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thejelly:
I was just reading some of the other comments in your journal, sorry if that's private, and I just thought to myself "if at any given time all these people and possibly more are going through the same heartbreak, how is the world still turning?"
shifter:
Lucidity's got it down. Took me 3 years to get over my first real love. Life goes on. The leafs will win the cup this century.