evldedgrl

well it's official, i am getting married this year on oct. 30. we just told my parents about it, so i think that's what makes it so REAL. my dad is extremely happy, but moreso for the fact that lillian will have married parents, but not so happy about our bride of frankenstein theme. but he'll get over it and have fun. my mom is just worried that we might be rushing into to things, but when you look at everthing, we have a child together, have been together for 3 and a half years and own our own home, so it's really not rushing anything.
I, myself m a bit nervous, because i have witnessed 97% of the marriages around me fail, badly, including my own parents. they were together for 11 years and had a very messy breakup that emtionally tortured my little brother and me. i could never put my little girl through what i went through with them. my dad asks me why i'm nervous and i tell him what i just wrote, and he says, "as long as you treat eachother right and compromise, you'll be ok." but then i think, well, i'm sure you and mom were fine and happy, but then things just starting falling apart piece by piece. i don't want anything to fall apart. yes, erich and i are fine right now, and have been fine, but who knows what will change in the years to come. and this makes me nervous. i guess i'm just a pessimist.
on a lighter subject, DDR is so much fun. i think wugglyump is coming over to play. i started playing on LIGHT instead of BEGINNER, and i swear, they forgot to put a difficulty level between the two. it's VERY hard, but practicepracticepractice!!!!
Erich and i are going to attempt to go out to dinner tonight, i just hope i can get a sitter. i was aiming for a movie too, but that might be pushing it. man, it's funny how simple things are before you have a kid. no need to find a sitter every day, or living on a timelimit for EVERYTHING. but the rewards outwiegh the negatives. it would be nice to get away for a few hours though... yes it would be...