Eh?

the ex was big, huge security for me. but once i realised that and found the balls to live without that, i broke it off with him. it's been difficult for him because he clings to his security in life. he clings to the familiar at all costs. that's how he works. i just can't live like that. i was a mother to him. so, essentially, he's feeling abandoned by his best friend, lover, and mother. i expected the guilt trips. that's what he does. i just expected them a whole lot sooner than this.
this dustin cat is really sweet. he says everything right. he does everything right. when we part company, he looks back. that means a lot to a girl. so many other things too. i just don't know if i can give him what he wants right now. he insists that he's not asking me for anything, but he is, really. and i'm just not ready to give that yet. the whole commitment thing and all that entails. yeah. but he really is a sweetie.