evil_mad_hatter

I'm going to a show next month in San Francisco. I just don't know which one yet. There's "Mindless Self Indulgence," "KMFDM," and "Placebo." I don't know, but I have to decide by tomarrow to request time off work. I like all of them and they're all different.

Navdeep is going to come down too. We haven't hung out since I left Fremont. My sister...
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First off I'd like to thank those who offered words of encouragment, it helped a lot. They kept me from picking the blade again, I have no idea how long the ones from the other day are going to take to heal.

I figured out what I'm going to dress up as for halloween. I'm throwing together a modern day Mad Hatter. I have everything...
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It's strange. I'm about to air something where hundreds can read it, or no one. The funny thing is that I don't care. Since I've none to talk to here, I might as well pretend that these words fall on ears that care. What's sad is that now this sounds like a pitiful cry for help. In actuality I just need to figure out... myself....
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For All Eternity

I hold up my sword, look into the blade
Then I see my reflection in the light.
Not mine I see, it is hard to explain
Her face I see, but how could that be true?
Her eyes look into mine with that passion.
That is a lie, I am trying to fool myself.
I am here to commit this act regardless....
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The many sides of me:

Most people have two sides; light and dark. Like a coin they flip between the two depending on how they feel. I'm like a die; a cube unlike any other. Rolling it we find six completely different sides.

1.) The Phoenix - Furocious Fire: Mostly dominant; Fast, determind, focused, serious.
2.) The Angel - Sustaining Air: Rises to assist others;...
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I need to escape. I want to write and work on my novel but I can't get in the mood. I'm surrounded by things I hate. Everywhere I look there's something that makes me mad.

I need to get a place and surround myself with beautiful things. I have a Black Knight Orchad that died while I was gone, but I still have the bulb....
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Ah. To start a new life in a new place. Feels good, in a way. No one looking at mistakes made in the past. Only seeing who you are now after all you've been through. All it took was the destruction of my former self. That is the way of the Phoenix.