My phone pics aren't working for some reason, o well.
I should be happy today. I got an email from the place I tested for that I am ranked #1 among all of the candidates for the job! Yay me! So I should hear something soon. However, I was just competely shot down by the guy I'm with and I'm feeling like crap. Anyway, I'm not sure I'm in the mood to chat, or post much today. All my friends tell me I'm beautiful, but if that's so true, then how come he's always telling me that I'm so much less than everyone else.
True story; I went to a Catholic grade school, we always had visiting missionaries and stuff like that. I remember watching a video about a South Pacific tribal story. The story goes that there was a girl in the village who everyone thought was ugly, the ugliest girl in fact. Her parents were embarassed of her and they didn't know how they were going to marry her off. Anyway, the hottest most eligible single tribesman was looking for a wife. He saw something in the ugly girl that no one else did and decided she was the girl he wanted to marry. He came to the girls hut with multiple goats representing the highest bride price anyone in the village had paid. Her father thought it must be some mistake. The warrior assured the father that it was his daughter he wanted, the most beautiful girl in the village. The thing was, the girl became beautiful, she always was beautiful, but she needed someone to make her feel that way. She really was the most beautiful girl in the village.
The thing I have realized after all this time is that the opposite can happen too. When you neglect someone and make them feel unwanted, they become ugly. They feel ugly.
I should be happy today. I got an email from the place I tested for that I am ranked #1 among all of the candidates for the job! Yay me! So I should hear something soon. However, I was just competely shot down by the guy I'm with and I'm feeling like crap. Anyway, I'm not sure I'm in the mood to chat, or post much today. All my friends tell me I'm beautiful, but if that's so true, then how come he's always telling me that I'm so much less than everyone else.
True story; I went to a Catholic grade school, we always had visiting missionaries and stuff like that. I remember watching a video about a South Pacific tribal story. The story goes that there was a girl in the village who everyone thought was ugly, the ugliest girl in fact. Her parents were embarassed of her and they didn't know how they were going to marry her off. Anyway, the hottest most eligible single tribesman was looking for a wife. He saw something in the ugly girl that no one else did and decided she was the girl he wanted to marry. He came to the girls hut with multiple goats representing the highest bride price anyone in the village had paid. Her father thought it must be some mistake. The warrior assured the father that it was his daughter he wanted, the most beautiful girl in the village. The thing was, the girl became beautiful, she always was beautiful, but she needed someone to make her feel that way. She really was the most beautiful girl in the village.
The thing I have realized after all this time is that the opposite can happen too. When you neglect someone and make them feel unwanted, they become ugly. They feel ugly.
*Hugs*
it is a human need to be loved and appreciated. my ex would make me feel like shit all the time. tell me things like she didnt love me, never did ect... this really caused me to feel bad all the time which also made things bad at work and just in my life in general. it took me leaving her and time and some friends to make life better and get me to like myself again.......im in a fairly good place now. when i comes down to a woman...they will never get me down again. the only thing that gets me now is the thing with my parents............life isnt all roses and cherries i guess but we have to deal with what life gives us and move on......
it is most likely a good thing that the guy is gone, i think i would have gotten worse for you if he wasnt. i know he was really the only guy that has been in your life but how do you know the perfect guy isnt out there for you? you are a very beautiful woman....who is smart and funny (from what i read here). you deserve to be happy in life.