Is it me???? (Rant #2)
Okay...maybe I'm having my be-all end-all mid-life crisis breakdown today. Damn, just when I thought things were going smoothly.
So, as you can see from my pics...I am a BBW. I had gastric lap-band surgery for weight loss in April and have lost 43 pounds so far. I have been overweight all of my life and have always struggled with dieting. In addition, I had a few 'female issues' over the years that definitely contributed to my weight gain and lack of weight loss.
With all of that said...am I THAT repulsive??? I am so sick of guys and their mind-fuck games. Is it too much to ask at this point to JUST have a regular friend-with-benefits?? I've given up on finding Mr. Right for Me, and at this point, even finding a real 'boyfriend' seems out of the question. At 37, I'm definitely not into the bar scene and am NOT into church and the like...so the million dollar question is: where do single chicks in their late 30's go to meet guys?
I have been single for so long, that I honestly don't think I would know how to act if I had a real boyfriend/relationship. My shit is my shit and I don't like to share...especially the remote. Just the thought of first dates and being on your best behavior makes me gag.
Maybe I'm cursed...GRRRRR. Maybe I should switch back to chicks...
Okay...maybe I'm having my be-all end-all mid-life crisis breakdown today. Damn, just when I thought things were going smoothly.
So, as you can see from my pics...I am a BBW. I had gastric lap-band surgery for weight loss in April and have lost 43 pounds so far. I have been overweight all of my life and have always struggled with dieting. In addition, I had a few 'female issues' over the years that definitely contributed to my weight gain and lack of weight loss.
With all of that said...am I THAT repulsive??? I am so sick of guys and their mind-fuck games. Is it too much to ask at this point to JUST have a regular friend-with-benefits?? I've given up on finding Mr. Right for Me, and at this point, even finding a real 'boyfriend' seems out of the question. At 37, I'm definitely not into the bar scene and am NOT into church and the like...so the million dollar question is: where do single chicks in their late 30's go to meet guys?
I have been single for so long, that I honestly don't think I would know how to act if I had a real boyfriend/relationship. My shit is my shit and I don't like to share...especially the remote. Just the thought of first dates and being on your best behavior makes me gag.
Maybe I'm cursed...GRRRRR. Maybe I should switch back to chicks...