everafter

who am I?
If i knew I would tell you
I am nothing you supose I should be
I never have been
never met your expectations
never lived to your level of cool
I was distant
all my life
and you wonder why?
I am still distant
you never wanted anything to do with me
now i don't want anything to do with you
go away and leave me alone
let me sit here
content to stare at the walls
let me feel my lonliness
and don't pretend you care
you never did
i was never worth it
and now i believe your lies
you try to tell me otherwise
you are older now
wiser you suppose
and you think you know better
but the truth remains
your ideas of me always true
and now they are implanted in my mind
do not fight me again
leave me alone
allow me to be content in my self hate
that is all i ask for

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This is just what i wrote for one of the groups...


A dark ache consumes me
how could i expect you to know
you have not cared how you hurt me
or how you tore my life apart
how you left a void in me
that no one else could fill
now i am haunted by your dreams
walking on the edge of my sanity
contemplating wheather to jump
and stop the pain that eats at my soul