ever

i need to sleep.
ive barely been able to since he left.
you never realize how empty a house feels with half your heart missing.
i realized i love him.
i dont know how to tell him.
i talked to his sister about it.
its weird being at this point in my life.
i thought it would take another 10 years to get here.
our families mesh well.
its cute.
im happy.


in other news:
im trying to get back on the ball with SG.
i still want to do it, i just got sidetracked by love and life.
i have a photog that i want to work with because i admire his work..
but on the real... id love to work with scott smallin. he amazes me.

i wantto lose 10lbs.
that would make me satisfied.
15lbs would be better.
ive gained weight being home.
either my mom, tobys fam, or my bffs fam is constantly feeding me.
ive missed that.
my thighs havent.
haha.

ill try and post more often.

xoxo
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