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I'm trapped in this damn city. I wanted to come home so bad, I had to, but when I look back at it I think I just wanted to get out of California and home was the easiest and quickest way out. Now, I'm stuck in this city where you can't even walk outside of your apartment at night or around the campus because you may be shot and killed. I guess I didn't think about the fact that when I moved back to Memphis that my parents were still going to live in San Diego and I wasn't coming back to the big house in the country. I came back to a shitty 2 bedroom in the city. FUCK!

Well, after much thought I've decided to leave again. This will always be home but its just not the place for me. I'm juggling a couple different cities right now. My hometown of Jacksonville, FL is out and I can't afford anywhere I love in California right now so...


It's down to Chicago, which I love. It's literally my favorite city in the states. I LOVE it there, but it may still be a little to expensive for me to do right now. Chicago may take another few years, but that is where I will settle down. Also, I was thinking about Dallas because it's my 2nd favorite city. I love the south, always will. And then theres Charlotte, NC. I still have family and friends there so I wouldn't be completly alone. Plus the city is gorgous. I miss it there. I'm not even going to lie. Finally, I could go to El Paso. My best friend Erin is there and my boy of course. But, we're just scared that it's too soon for me to make that kind of move. We basically figure if I move to El Paso, we will live together, and that just seems too soon. But, I want to be closer to him, not further from him. So, maybe Dallas. I have no idea, I have like 3 months to make up my mind. I'll be moving after the 1st of the year so, we'll see. I'll let ya know.