anyone out there have any experience with suicide? 
hmmm. can you do it and change your mind later?
maybe its time. i did a good life. really im happy with it. but maybe its enough now.
im not depressed, just have an unusual opinion. what better piece of art can there be?
and, in my case, how little it would matter to anyone. ive pretty...
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hmmm. can you do it and change your mind later?
maybe its time. i did a good life. really im happy with it. but maybe its enough now.
im not depressed, just have an unusual opinion. what better piece of art can there be?
and, in my case, how little it would matter to anyone. ive pretty...
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ronja:
i want a gong more than a zen gong. they don't have a good sound. well, not deep enough. i want a paiste gong (www.paiste.de). and i want to play it as instrument and get people in trance and meditation. gong meditations are sooo intense.
work work work, work work. quack quack.- im glad i have a piece. how to make it break through. plead. care. believe. i have good artists. young. dedicated. professional. i mean, its coming. in my bed tonight. fuck, what a hard morning. i ... o never mind. a bit more relaxed now. xes sex.
i have a great sex life. lots of sex, imaginative. powerful....
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i have a great sex life. lots of sex, imaginative. powerful....
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in b ed reeasssoonably early. im reasonably reasonable. rehearsing. sometimes you feel so good in the evening, after creating you feel alive. its a strange and irrational thing that is, i dont really THINK about what i am making sometimes and yet it it fuels me i guess. unseen. its a nice dance. maybe the best chunk of pure movement i have ever made. who...
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sockpuppet:
I am not sure you are a sensible person, or that I would like you, but I'm pleased to see you're there.
sockpuppet:
this is good. Probably, anyhow.
would I like Bavaria?
would I like Bavaria?
es war schn von dir zu hren. das leben ist so ... es geht wahrscheinlich viele leute so, aber es gibt dinge, eine reihe von dinge wo ich einfach nicht daran denken soll o. darf. verbotene gedanken. leider gibt es kein siegel. kein art gedanken lscher oder ausserhalb reichweite zu stellen. drogen helfen gar nicht fr mich. viel viel sport, langsam auch nicht. arbeit, ja,...
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probe started. the Girls are here. well, 2 of them.... first day done. 5 hours we worked. 5 down, 180 to go!!! wow. zohwy. whats IT going to be?
ITs in my hands i guess. or ours... mostly mine. they are good. and hard working... bin gespannt. ooooooooh.
ITs in my hands i guess. or ours... mostly mine. they are good. and hard working... bin gespannt. ooooooooh.
elvira:
haha..net ganz...bin a sterreicherin
in the empty studio, my last day alone. the first two dancers arrive tonight! one month of time with them. cleaned, actually painted, the house for the past 3 days. want them to feel happy and welcomed. its still an old farm house. i hate the tub, and the fact that the water is never really HOT. i mean, its not actually a place i...
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elvira:
oh vielen dank!
und schnen tag noch
oh vielen dank!
und schnen tag noch
dear helena,
day five.
feeling inspired getting into bed. i mean, full and ,. its not that i know what i want from this piece, but i know i want SOMETHING. and this feeling that all of this means something. that life means something - to have this feeling again. is wonderful. but there is another side to it too helena. that i am alone....
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day five.
feeling inspired getting into bed. i mean, full and ,. its not that i know what i want from this piece, but i know i want SOMETHING. and this feeling that all of this means something. that life means something - to have this feeling again. is wonderful. but there is another side to it too helena. that i am alone....
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what was i saying? oh yes, THE HARDEST THING F ALL. right. sitting in front of this wood stove, listening to the warm crackles... tomorrow i meet margit. she ll know what to do...
the girls come on the 6th. i want a chunk of choreography by then.
hey, we got in the festival in monaco!!! yey! there is only enough support for two dancers,...
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the girls come on the 6th. i want a chunk of choreography by then.
hey, we got in the festival in monaco!!! yey! there is only enough support for two dancers,...
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show went well. really well. we be good. too bad we re splitting up. well, maybe we re not. or not completely. lets see what comes along.
the question before me now is... starting back. yes, making things like that, is not the same as making things you believe in. and working with opera singers is not the same as working with dancers. the difference...
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the question before me now is... starting back. yes, making things like that, is not the same as making things you believe in. and working with opera singers is not the same as working with dancers. the difference...
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tomorrow i make 13000 euros for 6 minutes of dancing. yo! well, i have to give half of it to my partner, but EVEN SO. a few jobs like this every year and i might actually start health insurance. or even pay rent.
its not even that much work. really about 2 days. we work fast. full days. but 6500 euro, whats that 13000 dollars....
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its not even that much work. really about 2 days. we work fast. full days. but 6500 euro, whats that 13000 dollars....
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stina:
what type of dancing do you do? that's a lot of bling bling!