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Tuesday Jan 01, 2008

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clean temples

the thing about this life is,
as much as i may complain about its solitude
and many other , mostly related things,
there are actually many days
and hours
in which i have remarkable clarity
i dont know exactly how to say it, but, power.
this sense - well more than a sense because it translates into action -
that
i can do some pretty amazing things.
action?
well, studio usually. this means i can and do spend hours of time
lost in phrases of expressive body manipuations, throwing, shakings, falling, spinning and gesturing
crafting it in a particular direction. note taking, thinking and .... sort of envisioning , but mostly with just going through the damn thing over and over again. i can tell when something fits, when it needs to be lengthened, when shortened, and when to discard i altogether.
when i finish, like today, i looked at the clock and 4 1/2 hours had gone by. i cant imagine how

this is not saying that all these dances are great. or any of them. but they are full of movement, and they do exist for some purpose.

its not the only thing i can do with this clarity. i can write, or plan classes or dream up schemes. but choreography stands out most clearly. it shines most brightly.
i mean, i can choreograph, or do the other things, ANY day. but without ., well, first of all i put if off and distract myself. and, i dont know. its hard hard hard hard work. i FORCE myself to do it 30 minutes. ill work my butt off and then look up at the clock to see if i can allow myself to quit , and 7 minutes will have gone by. im not joking!

but my face was cool today, my temples clean. i was neither hungry , nor lazy, nor diddling away my time with nonsensical hobbies. my sense of myself was neither high nor low. it simply was. and i began my warm up which lead me to go through the steps and straight things out.
ohsoordinary:
I hope that most of all you enjoy this new experience. Thank you so much for the update!
Jan 3, 2008

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