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tomorrow i make 13000 euros for 6 minutes of dancing. yo! well, i have to give half of it to my partner, but EVEN SO. a few jobs like this every year and i might actually start health insurance. or even pay rent.
its not even that much work. really about 2 days. we work fast. full days. but 6500 euro, whats that 13000 dollars. 2 days of work. yippie.

"partner" , i can only say for another few weeks. we kicked out my partner starting nov 1st. this has been a big thing in my life for the last... year or so. getting free. he was attacking me all the time. it had gotten really hard to breathe. i never even really understood why,he turned on me like that. i have so much respect for him. ...

maybe because i slept with his girlfriend. many times. hm. but this is really not so strange. or wrong, is it? i loved her. he didnt. he told me that. she told me he told her that too. damn. why is life so fucked up?

anyway, it certainly wasnt fun with him anymore. we were a good team for many years. maybe this was bound to happen. maybe it needed to happen. artists should move on. especially dancers. 9 years is a LOT. i mean, maybe we MADE this catastrophy ourselves so that we _could_ move on. see what i mean? people do things like that you know.

its going to be hard to make a living without him. his skills , our teamwork, really helped make me famous. or whatever i am.