eventide

oh boy. more dreams. babis was driving a huge truck and making us all nervous because he was only occaisionally on the road, and then we stopped by some kind of official and we looked at the tires together. reallygood profile, in fact deeper than possible, and the wheels were all different sizes, but the man said our tires were good. and then

i was at the dentist and fell asleep while she was working on my teeth and then when she left i had somehow turned completely around so that my feet were where the head should go, but it made sleeping more confortable. when the dental assistant woke me, i smiled and said "oops".

and the magic water in a clear plastic cup which when poured on the ground, allowed you to go through the pool it made, and into another universe. which we did.

life is ok, even if its pretty fucked up. i like being fucked up!!! yey. this is how you re-invent yourself. dont be affraid of it. helena wrote me an sms today and said i do have a home. in my heart it is there. and to let myself be loved! well, i sure do love her (wish she was pregnant with my child though. hey but ok. mr freedom... ok)