evelynnrose

Tonight I have to talk to my FUCKING ex boyfriend so we can figure out our relationship. We have so many friends together and a wedding in a couple months that we both have to attend. We're trying to get on good terms here........fuck fuck fuck.

I have ABSOLUTLY no idea how I feel about him right now......

Apart of me wants to rip his head off for being so GOT DANG confusion

Another part of me wants to rip his cloths off bc he's a good fuck and I'm super super horny



Apart of me wants to wrap my arms around him and never let him go and just pray that everything works out magically.

I feel like I've put in so much and am STILL putting in so much and he isn't doing anything....I understand he's confused right now and doesn't like who he is and wants to change and I should be understanding (and a part of me is being understanding) but FUCK this is so FUCKING hard!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

This isn't the last guy I'll ever look at or sleep with or go out with...why can't I just brush it off like it never happened and move on??

FUCK relationships for a while......a LONG while. All these emotions are throughing me off........ugh


one last time........FUCK!!!!

ok i feel a little better.
wish me luck tonight that I dont murder him for being so sweet and looking at me with those huge beautiful blue eyes and be everything I want but can't have.