What do you do when you think the whole world is coming after you?
Well, I'll tell you what I did.
I quit work, started listening to Type O Negative and swore to stop looking for a Girlfriend as inevitably you only meet someone when you least expect it. Apparently.
Yeah, so that's pretty much what I did. Let's look into it shall we?
You might remember me telling you I made a stupid mistake at work, resulting in a disciplinary. Well, I made another mistake by staying. It was obvious (albeit not to myself) that I wasn't happy with my job, I got bored and complacent, meaning I made further mistakes. So I started a Monday shift as you do, happily getting on with things, only to be pulled up half way through my shift to be told I was being put through another disciplinary. I was quite angry at the fact they told me half way through my shift and still expected me to work the rest of it, which I made my point known resulting in being sent home for the night.
In a call centre 99.99% of your work is done on a phone, so I expected seeing I wasn't doing the job "properly" I would be taken off the phone. No, it's not meant to make that much sense, it's a job after all. So they expected, even with the possibility of losing my job over my head, for me to complete my week as normal. Again, no sense there to me. So my mother and I set about and thought about the possibilities. I was certain I would lose my job, and having the Dismissal box ticked next to your name makes it nigh impossible to find another job quickly without a catch. So I decided to hand in my notice, giving the standard 4 weeks notice that my contract specifies. Fine I thought, gives me a month to find a job and then I get another months pay on top of that. Again, it's never that simple. So the day before the disciplinary I go and hand my notice in, typically my manager didn't have a clue how this effected the said disciplinary, so she went and rang our HR department. Surely this would just negate the disciplinary seeing I was leaving anyway. AGAIN, it's never that simple. HR informed her that due to myself counting as an employee for the 4 weeks notice period, if the disciplinary verdict was dismissal, it would count even though I was leaving anyway.
*sigh*
So, I was given the option to leave with immediate effect. So I did. So I'm now unemployed, with no months pay to look forward to and bills to pay next month. E.g. "Get a fucking job and quick" mode.
All in all, I'm happier that I've left. Although, as I've already said, it has put me in a difficult (yet easily fixed) situation.
Type O Negative.
There they are...
I'd never seen or heard them until I went to Wacken this year and quite frankly, they blew me away.
So after Wacken, I planned to get some of there stuff and it's only taken me 3 months. So I've acquired "Bloody Kisses", "October Rust" and "Dead Again". Three awesome albums. I seriously can't recommend them enough. Peter Steele's (Lead Vocals/Bassist) voice alone makes them worth buying. They are the most quintessential kissing/having sex band I've ever heard. Favourite songs include "Black No. 1", "We hate everyone" and "Dead Again", but the each album is full of songs just waiting to give you a hard on/make you wet. Seriously. Just go out and buy them.
As you can see by my last Journal, the whole girl situation is back to square one. Obviously the end of it being that the said girl didn't feel the same way, which I'm fine with, but I'm not going to lie and say I'm not abit bummed about it. All in all, I'm happy. It's only when rejected you take them off the pedestal you put them on and realise they are just human, and therefore have faults like you and me. I've realised that physically she is amazing. Gorgeous and sensual in every sense of the word and while we get on like a house on fire, she also annoys the living shit out of me as I do to her. It's funny, it's more of a love/hate friendship.
With that in mind, a lot of my personal problems came to a head. I've addressed an awful lot of shit recently, stuff that I thought wasn't really a problem at all. I've basically tried to be less critical, tried to remove myself from problems that I have no involvement or fault in. Basically tried to improve my outlook on life.
Instead of sitting about waiting for the girlfriend to turn up, I've stopped looking. Fuck it. Two years of being single, the worst is over with. Again, I'm not going to lie and say that I don't miss having someone there, but she (whoever she might be) will turn up eventually, when she and I are ready. After all, how can someone love you when you don't love yourself first? If your not happy with yourself, you've got to sort it out (no duh Tim, Fuck sake.) Fate if you will, although I'm not a great friend of fate to begin with.
I've also decided to take up snowboarding, for four reasons. A) To do something different, B) Get me fitter, C) Get me out and about (holidays etc), and D) Get me to meet lots of new people (especially the cute boarder chicks :B). I'm looking forward to get into the snow as they say.
My Dad has decided to take lessons with me, as I don't see him much these days. I happy that he decided to do so. I'm looking forward to the Father-Son bonding time.
I've become a huge Harry Potter "nerd" over the past few months, it's grown since the last book. It's crazy. I've even had to stop myself spending over 100 on a proper Hogwarts uniform for Halloween and the like, although, I hope when that said girl comes along, she shares this interest, yeah, School Uniforms are hot, and magical school uniforms are hotter.
The "nerdiness" continues with the plan to have a small Quidditch Snitch tattoo on the inside of my right arm. This will be a simple design, obvious to fans but not to Muggles. The way I want it.
Lastly, the Comic Book world has hit me on the head. I lapsed from this glorious past time for a while, but I've come to find two, not one, but two Hellboy Graphic Novels that escaped my eyes. This, for anyone who knows me, is a tragic thing. I fucking LOVE Hellboy. I've yet to acquire these two Graphic Novels, but I will report back when I do. In the mean time I'm slogging through "Watchmen" by Alan Moore and have recently finished "Wanted" by Mark Miller and "Marvel Zombies vs. Army of Darkness" by John Layman. The last two have fast become two of my favourites.
So yeah, that's about it.
This is much longer than I intended it to be, but there should be plenty to comment on if you do wish.
I'll finish with a favourite quote of mine from "Wanted", talk to you later!
"I'm the scariest super-fuck who ever walked the Earth!"
Well, I'll tell you what I did.
I quit work, started listening to Type O Negative and swore to stop looking for a Girlfriend as inevitably you only meet someone when you least expect it. Apparently.
Yeah, so that's pretty much what I did. Let's look into it shall we?
You might remember me telling you I made a stupid mistake at work, resulting in a disciplinary. Well, I made another mistake by staying. It was obvious (albeit not to myself) that I wasn't happy with my job, I got bored and complacent, meaning I made further mistakes. So I started a Monday shift as you do, happily getting on with things, only to be pulled up half way through my shift to be told I was being put through another disciplinary. I was quite angry at the fact they told me half way through my shift and still expected me to work the rest of it, which I made my point known resulting in being sent home for the night.
In a call centre 99.99% of your work is done on a phone, so I expected seeing I wasn't doing the job "properly" I would be taken off the phone. No, it's not meant to make that much sense, it's a job after all. So they expected, even with the possibility of losing my job over my head, for me to complete my week as normal. Again, no sense there to me. So my mother and I set about and thought about the possibilities. I was certain I would lose my job, and having the Dismissal box ticked next to your name makes it nigh impossible to find another job quickly without a catch. So I decided to hand in my notice, giving the standard 4 weeks notice that my contract specifies. Fine I thought, gives me a month to find a job and then I get another months pay on top of that. Again, it's never that simple. So the day before the disciplinary I go and hand my notice in, typically my manager didn't have a clue how this effected the said disciplinary, so she went and rang our HR department. Surely this would just negate the disciplinary seeing I was leaving anyway. AGAIN, it's never that simple. HR informed her that due to myself counting as an employee for the 4 weeks notice period, if the disciplinary verdict was dismissal, it would count even though I was leaving anyway.
*sigh*
So, I was given the option to leave with immediate effect. So I did. So I'm now unemployed, with no months pay to look forward to and bills to pay next month. E.g. "Get a fucking job and quick" mode.
All in all, I'm happier that I've left. Although, as I've already said, it has put me in a difficult (yet easily fixed) situation.
Type O Negative.
There they are...
I'd never seen or heard them until I went to Wacken this year and quite frankly, they blew me away.
So after Wacken, I planned to get some of there stuff and it's only taken me 3 months. So I've acquired "Bloody Kisses", "October Rust" and "Dead Again". Three awesome albums. I seriously can't recommend them enough. Peter Steele's (Lead Vocals/Bassist) voice alone makes them worth buying. They are the most quintessential kissing/having sex band I've ever heard. Favourite songs include "Black No. 1", "We hate everyone" and "Dead Again", but the each album is full of songs just waiting to give you a hard on/make you wet. Seriously. Just go out and buy them.
As you can see by my last Journal, the whole girl situation is back to square one. Obviously the end of it being that the said girl didn't feel the same way, which I'm fine with, but I'm not going to lie and say I'm not abit bummed about it. All in all, I'm happy. It's only when rejected you take them off the pedestal you put them on and realise they are just human, and therefore have faults like you and me. I've realised that physically she is amazing. Gorgeous and sensual in every sense of the word and while we get on like a house on fire, she also annoys the living shit out of me as I do to her. It's funny, it's more of a love/hate friendship.
With that in mind, a lot of my personal problems came to a head. I've addressed an awful lot of shit recently, stuff that I thought wasn't really a problem at all. I've basically tried to be less critical, tried to remove myself from problems that I have no involvement or fault in. Basically tried to improve my outlook on life.
Instead of sitting about waiting for the girlfriend to turn up, I've stopped looking. Fuck it. Two years of being single, the worst is over with. Again, I'm not going to lie and say that I don't miss having someone there, but she (whoever she might be) will turn up eventually, when she and I are ready. After all, how can someone love you when you don't love yourself first? If your not happy with yourself, you've got to sort it out (no duh Tim, Fuck sake.) Fate if you will, although I'm not a great friend of fate to begin with.
I've also decided to take up snowboarding, for four reasons. A) To do something different, B) Get me fitter, C) Get me out and about (holidays etc), and D) Get me to meet lots of new people (especially the cute boarder chicks :B). I'm looking forward to get into the snow as they say.
My Dad has decided to take lessons with me, as I don't see him much these days. I happy that he decided to do so. I'm looking forward to the Father-Son bonding time.
I've become a huge Harry Potter "nerd" over the past few months, it's grown since the last book. It's crazy. I've even had to stop myself spending over 100 on a proper Hogwarts uniform for Halloween and the like, although, I hope when that said girl comes along, she shares this interest, yeah, School Uniforms are hot, and magical school uniforms are hotter.
The "nerdiness" continues with the plan to have a small Quidditch Snitch tattoo on the inside of my right arm. This will be a simple design, obvious to fans but not to Muggles. The way I want it.
Lastly, the Comic Book world has hit me on the head. I lapsed from this glorious past time for a while, but I've come to find two, not one, but two Hellboy Graphic Novels that escaped my eyes. This, for anyone who knows me, is a tragic thing. I fucking LOVE Hellboy. I've yet to acquire these two Graphic Novels, but I will report back when I do. In the mean time I'm slogging through "Watchmen" by Alan Moore and have recently finished "Wanted" by Mark Miller and "Marvel Zombies vs. Army of Darkness" by John Layman. The last two have fast become two of my favourites.
So yeah, that's about it.
This is much longer than I intended it to be, but there should be plenty to comment on if you do wish.
I'll finish with a favourite quote of mine from "Wanted", talk to you later!
"I'm the scariest super-fuck who ever walked the Earth!"
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And suicide boys is full of fucking emos. RUBBISH!
Sarah xx