evani

Soo... I've made a decison before it's too late.

I've decided not to be a suicide girl. I adore the suicide girls!!! Don't get me wrong, but I've just decided that personally it's not in my best interest. Mainly b/c of my religion and the example it sets for my children.

I love God more than anything, and for some reason I became selfish and made up every excuse as to why this would be okay, but the more I've thought about it, the more I realize it's not just artsy nude fun. It goes past artistic expression. I want to be a leader in some way at my church, and I don't feel that I would be setting the right example in doing so presently.

I also want my daughter to have a different life than I did, so I need to put things in motion on a more preventative level than a "do as I say, not as I do" level.

I don't want anyone to think I don't respect the suicide girls. I really do love them, and I want to be one, but my personal beliefs need to be stronger than my selfish wants.