Random thoughts. Not knowing where they are going. Scrabbled across my mind in with only a single dot, a period to end them. Boys. Money. Life. Death. Eating. Not Eating. Vodka. Drugs. Addictions in general. Sex. Its all there right now, winding around a little pillar at the tip of my mind. Each thought screaming out at the same time, "think of me, think of me!" Tears fall down my face, it's too much to handle!. Though tears are overrated, so I dry my eyes, take a deep breath. Inhale. the emotion is gone.
Ha "dynamite flowers bloom but once a year" I find my self thinking. Words that haven't crossed my mind in quite sometime. You won't understand what they mean, even if I wanted to tell you. Just a simple phrase that brings a peaceful serenity to my mind.
Feeling too much or too little right now I cant seem to pin point them problem. Screaming. Crying. Grabbing a bat to beat someone's face in I cant really say. Uncertainties of all my thoughts is what I can say for sure. But there you have it, a wonderful contradiction within one sentence. Im all over the place right now So I scream with the trembling sounds of silence. Inhale, think. Exhale, thought.
.Cant sleep.. Cant eat... The noise in the back ground is blaring and causing my head to ach. Oh how I loan for the comfort of a boy right now. For him to hold me, to touch me, but most of all to talk to me. To have one of those endless conversations about life. One of those ones that last all night and you find your self looking out your bedroom window and the sun is beginning to rise. oh the pleasures and endorphins that are released when having a conversations like that. Morning sex is what its like I find, well minus the talking part. The emotions that are produced are along the same level. Calm. Smooth. Peaceful. Sensual. Amazing. Well just simply amazing.
Ahhhhh Fuck boyswait on the other hand fuck men they're just to much to comprehend. What they do, how they act, so hard it is to decipher whether you are just a good fuck, or the girl of his dreams. Though Ill find what im looking for one day again, I know I will, but for now ill continue to live with what I got and hope for just a little more.
Ha "dynamite flowers bloom but once a year" I find my self thinking. Words that haven't crossed my mind in quite sometime. You won't understand what they mean, even if I wanted to tell you. Just a simple phrase that brings a peaceful serenity to my mind.
Feeling too much or too little right now I cant seem to pin point them problem. Screaming. Crying. Grabbing a bat to beat someone's face in I cant really say. Uncertainties of all my thoughts is what I can say for sure. But there you have it, a wonderful contradiction within one sentence. Im all over the place right now So I scream with the trembling sounds of silence. Inhale, think. Exhale, thought.
.Cant sleep.. Cant eat... The noise in the back ground is blaring and causing my head to ach. Oh how I loan for the comfort of a boy right now. For him to hold me, to touch me, but most of all to talk to me. To have one of those endless conversations about life. One of those ones that last all night and you find your self looking out your bedroom window and the sun is beginning to rise. oh the pleasures and endorphins that are released when having a conversations like that. Morning sex is what its like I find, well minus the talking part. The emotions that are produced are along the same level. Calm. Smooth. Peaceful. Sensual. Amazing. Well just simply amazing.
Ahhhhh Fuck boyswait on the other hand fuck men they're just to much to comprehend. What they do, how they act, so hard it is to decipher whether you are just a good fuck, or the girl of his dreams. Though Ill find what im looking for one day again, I know I will, but for now ill continue to live with what I got and hope for just a little more.
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The trials and tribulations we face due to the opposite sex are silly. It's funny how time will eventually heal everything (there is my cliche of the day).