evalution

Sam is gone for a month now, on tour with a canadian band. It's the first time since we've been together that we are apart for more than a couple of days. I am trying to find out now if I am still me without him, how much I changed because of him and if that's a good thing or not. I sometimes feel guilthy for not seeing some of my friends more often. I feel selfish for wanting to spend my time with Sam. With him I feel I can be myself, even when I'm not in a good mood. But how much have I sacrificed for him. I know I can denie myself really well. Did those deep dark nightmares really disapeare? I'm scared to be allone now....

It's a week now since Sam went on tour, and 'm doing pretty well without him. I miss him, but can handle it, like a sailor's wife