Woohoo, a sign of life from me again! 
I quit university. It was making me depressed so I decided it wasn't the right thing for me. Now I need to figure out what else I want to do with my life...... Maybe something with photography, which is a real passion of mine, but since a couple of months I've had problems with my vision. Yes, that sucks big time!
At first I thought it was because of my hayfever, but since that's over I still have problems seeing sharp. I went to see a doctor last week and he took some blood to test for diabetics (runs in the family) which could be causing the problems. I hope it's something else.....
I have still been able to take pictures lately thanks to the autofocus, but editing them in photoshop has been very hard. I can't focus properly so my eyes get tired quickly. An hour a day photoshopping is about it for me now so I'm extremely behind with all the editing. FUCK, I HATE THIS!
One good thing is that as soon as I quit university the depressive feelings disappeared as quickly as they came. Even though I'm not sure what to do with my life now and even with this visionairy problems I still feel ok. Yes, I have been better, but I'm no longer depressed. I guess going into therapy last year has been a good thing to do for me. And being in love ofcourse helps a lot too!
Sam and I are still very much in love with eachother. Damn, have I missed that the last few years! We visit concerts together, go on weekend trips, have relaxed sundays together, have great sex, have good conversations and both hope to grow old together. I've had several boyfriends since I was 15, but this is only the 2nd time it feels this good. I feel blessed.
That's it for now.
I quit university. It was making me depressed so I decided it wasn't the right thing for me. Now I need to figure out what else I want to do with my life...... Maybe something with photography, which is a real passion of mine, but since a couple of months I've had problems with my vision. Yes, that sucks big time!
At first I thought it was because of my hayfever, but since that's over I still have problems seeing sharp. I went to see a doctor last week and he took some blood to test for diabetics (runs in the family) which could be causing the problems. I hope it's something else.....
I have still been able to take pictures lately thanks to the autofocus, but editing them in photoshop has been very hard. I can't focus properly so my eyes get tired quickly. An hour a day photoshopping is about it for me now so I'm extremely behind with all the editing. FUCK, I HATE THIS!
One good thing is that as soon as I quit university the depressive feelings disappeared as quickly as they came. Even though I'm not sure what to do with my life now and even with this visionairy problems I still feel ok. Yes, I have been better, but I'm no longer depressed. I guess going into therapy last year has been a good thing to do for me. And being in love ofcourse helps a lot too!
Sam and I are still very much in love with eachother. Damn, have I missed that the last few years! We visit concerts together, go on weekend trips, have relaxed sundays together, have great sex, have good conversations and both hope to grow old together. I've had several boyfriends since I was 15, but this is only the 2nd time it feels this good. I feel blessed.
That's it for now.