evalution

I felt pretty bad the last couple of days. Haven't had enough time for myself lately. Am pretty tired wich makes me vulnerable and more emotional. In those moments I so long for someone to hold me, love me, be there for me. Normally I don't feel bad about not having a bf at the moment, but at these moments..... I do have friends I can ask to come over, but I'm afraid to show my vulnerable me. So I ask if they want to come over without telling why. When they say they don't have time I can feel really abandoned. Silly, I know! A good thing is that now I 'm awear of it and see it doesn't necessarily have something to do with me if they don't have time. They have their own lifes and if I don't say I need them because I feel bad I can't expect them to leave everything alone and come to me. And even if I did tell, they still have their own lifes. Yesterday a friend came over because she was feeling bad and we supported eachother. We talked and later lightned some candles, made tea and watched a movie. That really helped. I feel a lot better now. Still feeling tired and kind of vulnerable, but not really bad. I need to think about a way to relax this weekend and get myself together again. Any suggestions?