euro_trash

ok...so i don't feel AS sick...

so about 7 min ago i "made" myself some rice (only involving reheating in the microwave).
then about 5 min ago i sat down in front of my computer and randomly checked my email...nothing in my inbox...
so i checked my junk box...there were two messages...one random one..and then one totally random...
the latter...was an e-card from my ex... supposedly... the "from address" was spelled wrong..but instead of being erased_gone, it was erased_gopne....nothing huge..so i'm guessing it was from her...
so i'm like...hmm..maybe it's just some happy holiday card...but i still had a funny feeling in my stomach...
so it loaded...i was right, it was a happy new year card...nothing huge...kinda weird message the card was sending, for us not being together anymore...then it got to the personalized part...*sigh*

Quote:
"*Smoooch*
I love you sweetie!
-Jocelyn"

...and i was doing so well...in getting over her...there are still some nights/days that i miss her...but hardly ever anymore, i think it's cuz i don't have a girlfriend to occupy my thoughts
...but this has just killed my appitite...i ended up throwing away half of the rice i made... i needed to go to her house...well her mom's house...but her's too... anyway, i needed to go there...so maybe i'll stop there after shopping but before my mom's tomorrow.... well, later today (thursday).... i don't want to..but i sort of have to... *Sigh*

or maybe i'm just makind mountains out of molehills and she sent that card before we broke up...but that doesn't make sense...cuz she hasn't done anything like that the two years we were together...it's always been, if she's going to send a card...it would be instant delivery...not delayed....
and if it is someone else doing that...one of two things...
1, it's someone we both know sending cards to each of us from each of us trying to get us back together...
2, it's some stupid asshole that's torturing me...

but it sounds exactly like something she'd say and how'd she say it...*sigh* i think i should go there tomorrow and find out...or i'm going to be torturing myself until i find out or forget about it...and i don't forget about things like this...


i'm tired and i feel nautious....i'm going to bed... good night.