eurevry

So it would seem recently that a blog is in high demand, so i don't myspace much...um oh well. Myspace does not rule my life, its merely a tool of simplicity for life, not to overcomplicate it, or something like that. As for blogging its mostly just a way to vent for me, to vent my angers, frustrations etc. but also to talk about the...
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i don't know what i do that makes me, me. Why i do the things i do. God knows i try to be nothing but a good person, but sometimes no matter what i hurt the one I love. I don't know why I am the way I am. I hate myself, and maybe thats why I try so hard. A useless effort, because I...
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So much to say so much time. A lots happened in recent months. I bought a house a few months ago, and i've been living here with Shelby. Things at first took a bit getting used to being on our own for the first time really, but we got used to taking care of ourselves and such, for the most part. Work has been the...
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I'm in a panic...i don't know where I am, some strange barn-like building on the second floor. I'm scared...he's coming, coming to get me, coming to kill me. I don't know why...i look out the window and see his silhouette coming up, coming to get me, coming to kill me. I know not who this is that wants my life, but i'm afraid of him...i'm...
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So yeah, I'm very tired and I feel like blogging and such. I have been up for too long, I didn't mean to just sort of happened. It's amazing how much time you can waste talking about nothing before you realize hey...um the suns out now. So as of right now I have a stomach full of pancakes and sausages(thanks to my wife) a need...
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My mom asked me today...are you lonely? A question that is easy to answer with honesty. So honestly, of course I'm lonely...how could I not be? I have this whole house to myself and a good majority of my time is spent in this house. I do have friends who come over on occasion, but still its a short time that we hang out. So...
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Hmm not as much as I thought. that was fucking genius...why do people have to die? To make life matter. Beautiful. Been watching Six Feet Under, first season done. I'm watching it as I type, thats where that line came from. Now what should I watch? A movie? Another show? Porn?...Big Bang Theory it is! Tee hee hee it could almost be a porn name....
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Lately when I listen to an album I used to listen to often, memories get drudged up. A lot of the time I remember feeling, sad, depressed, alone...I always felt a great deal of melancholy and dread. I have those memories and perhaps they're not memories just how I feel and have always felt. I realized that when its just me and my thoughts, they...
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These late nights, its nice to be up and spend some time with this familiar friend. On these late nights its so calm and silent, beautifully silent. I'm such a hermit at times, always keeping to myself in this room, thoughts pouring out my brain. I'm such the misanthrope at times because I realize I hate the huddled masses. I'm such the troubled artist at...
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Every other day I wonder, I think...Dad are you proud of me? Father our time was short, my thoughts now, my mind now, you'll never get to know. You just knew the little boy who loved you, who clung to your every word. The little boy who looked up and saw a man, a great man. All that made you great was that you loved...
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