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So much to say so much time. A lots happened in recent months. I bought a house a few months ago, and i've been living here with Shelby. Things at first took a bit getting used to being on our own for the first time really, but we got used to taking care of ourselves and such, for the most part. Work has been the...
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I'm in a panic...i don't know where I am, some strange barn-like building on the second floor. I'm scared...he's coming, coming to get me, coming to kill me. I don't know why...i look out the window and see his silhouette coming up, coming to get me, coming to kill me. I know not who this is that wants my life, but i'm afraid of him...i'm...
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So yeah, I'm very tired and I feel like blogging and such. I have been up for too long, I didn't mean to just sort of happened. It's amazing how much time you can waste talking about nothing before you realize hey...um the suns out now. So as of right now I have a stomach full of pancakes and sausages(thanks to my wife) a need...
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My mom asked me today...are you lonely? A question that is easy to answer with honesty. So honestly, of course I'm lonely...how could I not be? I have this whole house to myself and a good majority of my time is spent in this house. I do have friends who come over on occasion, but still its a short time that we hang out. So...
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Hmm not as much as I thought. that was fucking genius...why do people have to die? To make life matter. Beautiful. Been watching Six Feet Under, first season done. I'm watching it as I type, thats where that line came from. Now what should I watch? A movie? Another show? Porn?...Big Bang Theory it is! Tee hee hee it could almost be a porn name....
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Lately when I listen to an album I used to listen to often, memories get drudged up. A lot of the time I remember feeling, sad, depressed, alone...I always felt a great deal of melancholy and dread. I have those memories and perhaps they're not memories just how I feel and have always felt. I realized that when its just me and my thoughts, they...
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These late nights, its nice to be up and spend some time with this familiar friend. On these late nights its so calm and silent, beautifully silent. I'm such a hermit at times, always keeping to myself in this room, thoughts pouring out my brain. I'm such the misanthrope at times because I realize I hate the huddled masses. I'm such the troubled artist at...
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Every other day I wonder, I think...Dad are you proud of me? Father our time was short, my thoughts now, my mind now, you'll never get to know. You just knew the little boy who loved you, who clung to your every word. The little boy who looked up and saw a man, a great man. All that made you great was that you loved...
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Sit down and I'll tell you a story, a story about a boy who wants nothing more than to die. However due to being cursed with an unmeasurable amount of bad luck...he hasn't or maybe he can't. He can't count how many times he's tried to die. It always ends the same, still breathing, still living, pondering why the world stubbornly keeps him around. Its...
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I've come to realize just how damaged we all are. We're born imperfect, in a constant pursuit of trying to fix it. I never thought I was a damaged person, I truly believed I never would be. An Incredibly naive thought. My greatest flaw as a human being is my naivety of the world around me. Then the realization of the ugly truth and the...
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I feel something weighing down again, I feel it putting pressure on my chest. I push back to alleviate it only to realize how weak I have become. How did I get here to this point and how much farther will I make it before I break? I feel despair again, I can feel the tears welling up, but they are the only thing i...
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I look around and I see this place
I see it for what it is
A hole
A ditch
A place to die
I see the immorality
The corruption
The lost innocence
The world is a horrible place
but all we have is each other
If I look at you, everything else
Fades away
Gets out of focus
If I look at you
All I...
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