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I went to Cedar Point yesterday with some people and it was awesome. I'll probably upload a few of the pictures I took in a later post or something.

On another note, I feel terrible. After I got home last night I showered and hightailed it to my friend's moving in party at his new house. One of his new roomies is super cute and we hit it off really well..... so we fucked. I've never done that before. Meaning, I've never had sex with someone I didn't really know or care about. The entire time I kept thinking about how it just isn't the same, and Joe kept popping up in my mind. I wanted it to be him so bad. le sigh. My body feels a lot better now, but my heart is sinking. I guess I thought it would make me feel better to be intimate with someone who I had a pretty strong connection with off the bat like that. Don't get me wrong, it was nice, but like I said.... just not the same. So then after we screwed, he wanted to know if we could take it further. I was thinking "Isn't this kind of backwards?" If he wanted to date me he shouldn't have had sex with me so quick. Erg. I'm so stupid. I really should have said no instead of being such a pushover. I just want Joe back, even if people think I could do better. I probably won't say anything to him though. After all, he is the one that said we shouldn't see each other. I'd probably look pretty crazy if I was all "I miss you, and I want to be with you" blah blah blah. Grr.