well prety much the worse day of my life, my gran died last night a 76 she had a massive heart attack and died -sighs-(im not lookign for pity or empathy or sympathy this is my journal and im just putting it in so i know and rember so i dont forget) and then i wake up and get hate mail telling my im a looser for sending the same email, i honestly didnt think any one whould reply or even give a fuck, no one ever does, so i didnt expect it to start but i wos wrong as usal so i have alot of groverling to do and alot of sorrys to say, so here it is, i am sorry and i am a pethtic looser ,i do dumb thigns and that wos one, so i dont desevre alot of poples freindship cos that wos really dumb , and i am stupid and pethetic, i dont know why i did it, i just thought it be a good way to make freinds, say nice things, doesnt mean i didnt mean them, i did evry word, im not much of a person and my soical life isnt all that so i ungulf my self in my computer and the freinds i get from it, i thoguht i whould get freinds ,instead only enemys so im deeply sorry for all that wos done , more then you know, and i understand if you dotn wanan be my freind , but please know that it wos a mistake, and i am deeply sorry and i am a looser, i just dont think before my actions, and i am terrible sorry for all that i did, and wos said, so please, know that im sorry, i didnt mean to hurt any one, or mispalce your trust and frindship , id id it cos i thought i whould make freinds, i have trouble tlakign to pople espically girls and online its no diffrent and i thought that buy having freinds, and telling them nice things and makign them smile, that they whould see me a as a nice person and whould befreind me isntead thru dumb actions and stupid thoguhts, ive only lost freinds so, im sorry and i just wanna ask for forgivness, and hope that ,one day youl relise that i dont act like normal people, and that i am a "pathetic looser" , i wish you could be me for one day and see the world like i do, i try hard to be normal to think liek evryone eles but i cant, it wos so fuckign stupid to do what i did, and im a twat for it, so hopefully this apolige will atleast be read, and understood, im sorry deeply and with all my heart sorry 
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What I WROTE YOU BY MAIL is something that I SENT TO YOU but if you want to make a world, ok, do it, I wont.
Stop sending me emails please.
and about the other stuff, hopefully this won't be too harsh...i think you're being way too dramatic. to repeat what a pathetic loser you are isn't going to get you any sympathy or friendships. grow up and take responsibility-say you're sorry and get on with it, don't make excuses for being weird or not having friends or whatever...and if you have some personal email battle going on, don't bring it to the site-no one cares. it seems like another attempt at getting sympathy and i don't think anyone's gonna give it to you right now. put your time into talking with the girls instead and maybe that way you'll earn their respect and friendship...