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Monday Mar 13, 2006

Mar 13, 2006
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Is it quite possible I spend so much time stripping everyone I see of their defenses in the hopes that they're like me?

I think I'm so reclusive because of a conflict over that very question -- or perhaps the more bare and primal questions asking it raises. Life isn't a science, but like the quest for proof; what we knew always changes when we learn more. And so I feel malleable... my concrete vision of self is ephemeral. The only constant I have to rely on is that I am here.

The space that I occupy; the conscious one -- I notice that it only ever expands. The more it expands, the more soft and pliable it becomes. The easier it is to slip through the cracks. The more I need to learn. The more I need to ingest. The more I need to create. The more I need to relax. The more lost I become. The more indistinct everything is. Becomes. Has been.

Always expanding, never solidifying.

And I fear an end with no end.

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